“She has autism, but she’s very high-functioning.”
Not just high-functioning, but very high-functioning! I’m really moving up in the world! This was shortly after she had read something I had written about having been hospitalized repeatedly throughout my adolescence and young adulthood, sent to an institution because it was clear that I could not live on my own (later released to my parents care for a couple of months until they told me to move out), and having never been able to make it through college despite having a high IQ.
Meanwhile, I come home in the evenings and cry or have meltdowns; I’m only eating two oranges and a bowl of oatmeal a day because anything else would be too complicated; I’m in trouble with all kinds of agencies for forgetting to pay things; and my Internet search history is filled with things like “supported living for adults with autism” because I have never been able to be independent successfully, and this time isn’t any different.
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